I have been meaning to write for weeks now. Yet, I continue to let life interrupt me in the silliest of ways.
I’ve always tried to make logical order of my posts and the order in which life happens. And lately, I’ve learned that life never happens the way you expect it to.
Nevertheless, I wanted to share something that happened to me last night. Something laughable and probably not something to proclaim over the internet, but isn’t that what bloggers are for? To share what others don’t?
I couldn’t sleep last night.
Because I couldn’t stop smiling.
I have experienced the lowest of lows in the past year. From losing loved ones, experiencing heart ache, feeling anxious, depressed, confused, angry, and at times… feeling absolutely nutty. Along with becoming “clinically depressed with an extra side of anxiety.” I stopped writing, running, doing the things that I loved because I was losing my purpose. And I realized, nearly every one of my friends, post college was experiencing these life symptoms.
And guess what that’s called? Simply put; growth. It’s not always cozy. This quote I posted from Alice Walker, couldn’t have explained it more beautifully.
“For it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.”
How liberating and exciting is that.
Sometimes, happiness (also known as working your butt off and a form of pure joy) doesn’t show up when you want it to, but when it sneaks it’s way in… Be prepared to lose sleep. Because all of a sudden, reality becomes more charming than your dreams.
In the mean time, I’m still struggling with what most 20 somethin’ humans are struggling with; student loans, transitioning from traveling the world to living back at home, finding your dream job, staying in shape, finding your purpose, but I’ve got exciting things coming my way! A few jobs opportunities in my psychology field, a new place to live and a job I never imagined being a part of my future. But hey, positive things happen to positive people, and I can feel the next phase, and my new level of personality about to be revealed.
Happy Tuesday everyone, hope ya’ll can’t sleep tonight (because you’re too busy smiling).